The next day we see Fighter waiting impatiently for Tutor to appear on campus. He keeps looking at his phone. He’s anxious and worried about Tutor. When Tutor approaches with heavy footsteps, Fighter tries to ask what’s wrong. He gets shrugged off both literally and figuratively with Tutor telling him that he’s just stressed, that he’s late for class and has to go. Fighter is scared and worried. You see it in his face and in his eyes.

The we have Zon sleeping over at Tutor’s condo. This is such a great scene. I love it so much. It shows the friendship that Zon and Tutor have.

Also Zon offers to listen to Tutor. He’s willing to be a sounding board for his friend, no matter the problem. He’s shocked that Tutor and Fighter have had sex. He doesn’t have any negative judgment, just seems shocked. Of course this leads to the are we in a y novel question since he is developing feelings for Saifah as well. He tell Zon they might be in a novel as strange things are happening, but he encourages Zon to follow his heart, while he says for his situation he should follow his head.

In my opinion, choosing his head over his heart is also a way to protect himself from further hurt.

The next scene is where Tutor is resolved and hurting. I can’t find a logical break, but I want to put the scene in here. If you want to watch it, feel free. But you can skip it and read my thoughts if its too painful.

Tutor really gives him the fake smile and Fighter knows something serious is wrong. He even tries to tease Tutor, desperate to lighten the mood before Tutor utters words Fighter doesn’t want to hear. He sees this coming as is doing everything in his power to stop it from happening. He tells Tutor, if I didn’t care about you, who would I care about? Smiling to try to cheer Tutor up. He doesn’t know what else to do. He’s already asked him and tried to reassure him. So Fighter is doing the only other thing he knows how to do, which is to tease Tutor.

Tutor holding his hand and pulling it away from his face hurts me so much. Then he puts on his brave face as he begins the painful process of asking Fighter to let him go.

He asks Fighter if he remembers the promise Fighter made that he will hold onto Tutor’s hand. He’s putting on a brave face, trying to not breakdown.

Fighter in his scared state tells Tutor to stop teasing him, its not funny. He knows deep down its not teasing. Tutor would never tease him like this. But in this moment, he’s in a blind panic. Two days before, things were good between them. Yes they were worried about his dad and hwa, but they love each other. It should be ok. And Tutor wont talk to him.

Tutor starts to cry. Fighter holds on to his hand tighter. He doesn’t know what’s happening. He wants to know why. All Tutor says is I’m sorry. In hurt and frustration Fighter lashes out at Tutor, telling him to stop acting like he’s the star of a soap opera. All Fighter wants in that moment is to understand why. He wants to know what’s wrong so he can fix it. He needs to fix it. Desperation is driving his actions. For the first time in his life, he loved someone and that someone loved him in return. And now it was all falling apart and he couldn’t understand why.

For Tutor, the pain he is in is so visible. He doesn’t want to hurt Fighter, he doesn’t want to hurt himself. But for the sake of Fighter’s family he will let Fighter go, even though Fighter brought him so much happiness. And then Fighter says what he does about being in a drama and it’s like the knife is twisting inside him. Once again Tutor is putting others happiness and needs above his own, and he’s not understood. He wishes Fighter could see that he was doing it for his family.

Tutor tells him that there are many pitiful characters in a soap opera. That he feels like no one understands him, he hates to feel helpless, he hates to feel weak. But he is weak at this moment. He’s not strong enough to endure the pain of having to let go of Fighter’s hand. He ask Fighter do you know what I have to face? Fighter has never had to care what others think or feel. Yet Tutor has always had to care about other people. He doesn’t get to care for himself. As he said at the beach, he was always taking care of others. He tells Fighter no one cares about his feelings and they hurt him. Fighter is hurting him right now by not letting go.

Fighter asks him if he regrets this, and he says nothing, because he’s used up everything he had just to ask Fighter to let him go. He’s broken and hurting.

Fighter tells him he doesn’t understand. All he knows is that his love is hurting, and he doesn’t want to make it worse. The only thing he can do to help his love, is to let go and walk away. This is the hardest thing he’s ever done. But he can’t stand to see his love’s tears. He would give anything to keep his love from falling apart, so he tells him that he’s sorry that he made him. He holds his hand then strokes his hair trying to get Tutor to smile. He walks away trying to not fall apart and not feel worse.

Tutor starts to fall apart, covering his mouth to keep Fighter from hearing his sobs, so that Fighter wont come back. If Fighter knew how hard this was, he wouldn’t let go. And at this moment they love each other enough to not to want to hurt each other any more. The beautiful song that played during their confession plays as their breakup song. As Fighter was hiding his love now Tutor is hiding his pain. The song is both a love song and a song filled with pain. So well done and heartbreaking. 😭😭💔💔

Zee impresses me so much in this scene. I wasn’t sure if he could pull off the heartbreak scene. His tears hurt me. The tremble in his lip, the hand covering his face. I knew Saint can pull of tears and pain, he’s so good at it. But Zee pulled it off.

I can’t end here. I have to talk about what we’ve seen for the next weeks episode and what has been leaked/spoiled.

I think you are seeing things out of order. Here’s a few more pictures and a video of them in the same clothes, then I’m going to give you some context.

Let me break down what I think is going to happen. Fighter is going to be and is heartbroken. I think he goes to a bar, gets drunk and does something stupid, like show up at your ex boyfriends to demand an explaination. Then he sees that Tutor is still wearing the necklace that he gave him. This sets him over the edge. Tutor still has feelings, so he pins him to the wall kissing him. Tutor kisses him back because he missed him/still loves him. Then he pushes Fighter away, protesting. Fighter throws him down on the bed, kisses him again, refusing to let go or stop. Then he realizes that Tutor is struggling. He pulls back, shocked at his actions and Tutor cries. He leaves and Tutor falls apart, crying into his pillow. Fighter is torn up about what he did. He leaves the condo feeling sorrow and disgust at himself and what he did.

This is how hard this scene is to watch, so be warned.

This scene is hard. I may not have it right, but I think I do. We will see. Also Saint had to coach Zee because he was so caught up in this scene he couldn’t shake it off. So the crew gave them space and Saint tried to crack jokes to help break Zee out of character.

Then Tongta comes back from Germany. (I know they are at the airport because I recognize the windows in the preview, and as you can see from the above video, they are wearing the same clothes) She asks Tutor and Fighter to pick her up at the airport. Tutor can’t tell her what happened. Or maybe he does. Zon has been staying with Tutor so he talks to him before he leaves to go pick up his sister. He takes off his necklace before going. Fighter either meets him there intentionally or not, not sure. Then we see Fighter trying to talk to Tutor with Tutor pulling away. I can only assume either Tongta spills the tea about what happened or it came to light somehow, because we see they are going to talk about what happened.

This is when he goes home he blows up at his father. He has found out that his father got between them and ruined his relationship and his happiness. This is when he gets slapped by his dad. And apparently according to Zee, that slap hurt….lol. He wasn’t holding back.

I believe that the words from P’Kae, the fact that he hit his son, all of that will come back to the dad. I also firmly believe that Fighter and Tutor will be together after they overcome these struggles they will come through to the other side.

Sending hugs and love in case this episode is painful as well. They haven’t let us down. So trust in them please. They’ve given us such a complex story. Fingers crossed by the end of the episode they will begin to heal.